Monday 25 March 2013

Week 11- Attitudes make great memories



Week 11 19/3/13 - 25/3/13
Firstly I have no week 10 as it was a pretty slow week which is an excuse which basically means I was to busy and lazy to right it, but nothing much really happened. So enjoy week 11...
Tuesday -18/3/13
Today we had our half day ministry, were we visited our slum family. I was standing around as usual whilst everyone conversed in Lugandan and then Richard said that I should talk to them as they know English.  So stepping out of my comfort zone I asked if we could do anything to help them; I really want to be able to do something because I feel like when you immerse yourself in their lives then do you really connect. So I was shown that (to my delight) she is rearing chickens to sell when they get older. In their complex of rooms which they rent out, they have converted one into a chicken room. In it there, there are about 100 or more 1 week old chickens running around, sleeping and being adorable. I patted them and just looked on in pure joy. Then I helped peel some sweet potatos which are about the size of mangos to rockmelons which they roast and then sell. It was realy cool and we used a knife to peel them, and once again I think the Ugandans think that white people can’t do anything so they laughed at me until they became surprised that I could quite successfully peel them.
On another note mother precious is due to have a baby in a week or two which is super exciting. I hope we get to go their soon and see the baby and bring things to help them. The babies name boy or girl will be Rio and it is just awesome so prayers everything goes perfectly well and a negative the baby will unfortunately be HIV+ so prayers for little Rio.
I have also been taught something from God that instead of being one of those lesson you realise latter on you learnt was smacked right in front of me. I was basically upset with everything, feeling like I haven’t been making progress and everything hasn’t been as exciting as I thought it might be. So here I am lying in bed trying to sulk and cry and have a pity party, but inside my heart I am just full of joy. Thanks holy spirit. So God had a little pep talk to me about how if I wanted to be an adult I had to adjust my attitude and actions. If I want to be an adult I can’t have a sulk when I feel sad and try and be depressed. I have to decide that when something goes wrong and I feel upset I need to decide to have a good attitude and be happy; I have to purposefully choose to overcome the problem and make the most of every opportunity. I mean I‘ve heard the same story as well and thought yeah yeah that’s all nice and well but what about this. But I am really starting to understand what it means to give everything to God and to make every circumstance the best it can. Example the slum family; usually it is pretty boring but because I made it the best it could be and I loved it and can’t wait to go back again. Then he gave me this analogy that I have this map in my head were I think I will overcome this here, learn this at a certain stage and have this experience at point x but God has his own map and I having surrendered to his will by being here, then I must defiantly be on track on his map. I am achieving the exact things I need to be but at the same time giving my full obedience in all circumstances and decisions I can in some things speed up the process and enhance my experience. I was reading my bible and I came across this verse in 1 Corinthians which basically said God will use all circumstances in a Christian’s life to benefit them. So I then decided that since there was no way I could be depressed I would choose to be positive even though I wanted to kill someone I actually felt a lot better making that initial choice to and ever since then I have had self control over my feelings and urges to throw a tantrum (mostly in my head) and have been inspired on how to make every opportunity the most flavoursome it can be.

Wednesday -19/3/13
Thursday -20/3/13
Today we had our full day ministry in which we visited living hope. It was really nice and we sat around as she crotched the things I am going to buy. I changed the order to be smaller but just as cool. I learnt to make one of the flowers and we also ate Japardi. It was really nice and simple.
Saturday -22/3/13
Today we had our sports day and I was on the first aid team in which I helped the runners in recovery and rub their legs. There was this girl who was brilliant and I learnt a lot from her. I just can’t get over the runners it’s like being at the Olympics. When these people take off they are nearly galloping or even flying, I feel exhausted just looking at them. There was this one girl who was a short and long distance runner who would win every race she did. I was talking to her and she said that she wanted herself or her kids to go to the Olympics. It was just brilliant and even though I get puffed just walking up and down the stairs I felt inspired and have started working out to try and become fitter inside and out. That’s all.
 Sunday -23/3/13
Sunday I had a lot of fun with my team. A lot of funny conversations were had which involved Mary suggesting Callie and myself should get married and then her quickly suggesting that she would be the flower girl. I was basically crying laughing because it was so out of character. That day went really fast and we also bought Japardi which is becoming a tradition for us, I think the best Japadi ( awkward moment when you ask a Ugandan the proper spelling of Japadi and find it is actually spelt and pronounced Chapati) is there from what I have had so far. I had a really good day and even had a good time in the children’s church with only one crying at my face but four absolutely in love with me... the odds are becoming better.
Monday -24/3/13
Today was the best day ever! You know how you have those mornings were you are sleeping on cloud 9 but you actually have to get up early and then the morning you can stay in bed you have the worst sleep. Well today I was sleeping on cloud 9 and was able to stay sleeping on cloud 9. I then also had a dream about how I could use the money I had on a gift card I was given. In Uganda it is hard to find somewhere to use a visa gift card and then I had an epiphany that I would use it to buy more phone credit on the internet and it miraculously worked. So I killed two birds with one stone as the $100 gift card was about to expire in 4 days. So I was so happy. I then Skyped with my family for about 2 hours and only used 170mb which is phenomenally good for me. It might sound lame but I am on mars’ moon’s (I actually bought the song ‘mars’ from ‘the planets’ today) with my success. I then had a beget brought for me in which I ate the whole thing. Then tonight Thomas cooked us a surprise dinner if traditional western food with burgers and coleslaw. Fantastic!!; and Peter Esset even came over. Random fact but I have just gotten a craving for IFS chips right now at 6:58am Australian time. Then Hannah’s package came, which contained two of my favourite movies ‘Pocahontas’ and ‘Corpse Bride’; so I was defiantly happy today. I have had a brilliant day and am now finally finishing my blogging for this week. Cheers from a happy Jack in Africa!!

Monday 11 March 2013

Week 9- persuit of Happiness




Week 9 5/3/13 - 11/3/13
I am going to do my weekly blog a bit differently and just include the interesting parts, you probably don’t want to really know about what I am eating and how the bus ride was.
Tuesday -5/3/13
On Tuesday our ministry was at the baby’s home. For the first chunk of our visit time Jonal and I cleaned the pool so that later that afternoon the babies could have a swim as it was hot that day. That was pretty simple, just scrubbing and rinsing it and I even used so plumbing skills unblocking the drainage pipe by shoving the hose right down it. Anyway about fifteen minutes before we had to leave they were going to feed the baby’s so we got to feed them. I carried out a baby called George who is so cute! They were feeding them outside and had the baby’s propped up against pillows as they sucked their bottles. It was so cool and I was watching about four babies making sure they had their bottles, repositioning them when they rolled over and just watching their eyes looking around and basking in their adorableness. So that was a highlight for the first day of the week and I have completed one of the things I wanted to do and more... I wanted to hold an African baby. Check.
Wednesday -6/3/13
Today I bought Minnie a Giraffe as today is my animal purchase day and a Buffalo for Ashley. The tip of the Buffalo’s horn was snapped off I discovered after unwrapping it, however I used my scissors to carve it like the other one and if it was covered in the varnish you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference.
Then today I lead cell and the topic was ‘Who is Jesus to you’. It was one of those subjects were you’re like what is this but as I thought about it more I realised what a good question it was. So I learnt a lot of things about who Jesus was to people and discovered who he was to me in may aspects. I have lways struggled with understanding Jesus on a personal level because I feel the bible doesn’t portray him in a way that shows his true character. I feel like the bible at least for me shows him as yes a great guy but on the character I only see a blunt, introvert who is perfect and doesn’t really want to get to involved in anything. But after our discussion I actually thought about it and who Jesus really is. In reality the bible and from my own experience has lead me to the conclusion that Jesus is this incredible guy who you just want to be around, has perfect virtues, is tuff, isn’t a hippy, probably had a cool hip short beard and in the spiritual world is a fearsome, tuff,  powerful warrior. And he is so in love with me that he is always there never judging and even though we feel like he is so far away, Jesus is there just saying turn around and turn your eyes to me; give me everything and I’ll work it out, just follow me and everything will work out.  So that’s what I discovered about him and I feel like I have really been opened up and y spirit is being prepared for some serious dental work if you get my drift. I am also starting to understand how people are so in love and just high on Jesus, and it is simply because this great guy who is just the best and awesome loves me always, forgives me everything and wants to know me to the end of the universe and back; I don’t know about you but that’s a pretty cool God.
Thursday -7/3/13
Today was our full ministry day; we went to Rift Rack and had a pretty cool adventure. At rift rack we taught a lesson to them about how practising your relationship with God will only make it better and used the analogy of practising soccer. We sat in this big hut which was very charming, except for one thing... the top of the inside was covered in webs and you could see the spiders (they looked a lot like the bush spiders you see in Longreach). Regardless I thought it was absolutely disgusting as if you didn’t know I am terrified of those creatures... the one animal I that I question if it really did come from God or did it crawl from the pits of hell... who knows. I was sitting down in a spot where there were none directly above me and then Winnie found out that I didn’t like them so got a piece of grass and tickled the back of my neck while I am sitting under the hut and I never felt so sick in a second in my life, I still crawl when I think about it. So I jumped up to sit next Callie and she says there aren’t even any out, and we look up and behold there is a mother right above us... I basically ran back to my spot and blackmailed Winnie I think to leave me alone; I am pretty good at black mailing.
Anyway moving on from the spiders, we got to teach the boys a memory verse; however none of them can speak English so I am not sure why we had to teach them in English, but I did make up actions for them to copy. After we had done our little piece we had a tour of the homes and the farming side. It was really cool because it wasn’t like one of those nasty Orphanages you see in the movies or like the people didn’t like them; the guys in charge adored those boys and were so encouraging to them as they sung their welcome song. We bought some sugar cane at 500 shillings a stalk which is basically 20 cents. Then I spotted a mother hen with three very young chicks. I wanted to hold them but if the mother attacked it would be embarrassing being a muzungu and being attacked by a mother hen. Anyway I watched them and to my luck a chick got stuck in this concrete thing with sides and the mother moved on unaware. So I quickly moved over and picked up the chick. I had some photos with it as you can see on face book and then the lady taking the photos said, ok now go hold the mother and we all had a laugh. Everyone thinks I am crazy because I love chickens so much, but if only they could understand how much they are a part of my family. I then had a picture taken were I look really skinny, so my day was complete and happy with an interesting adventure in the field of ministry. Thankyou God for a fun day.
Friday -8/3/13
Friday was  a day off were we celebrated National Women’s day and I am pretty sure we did nothing. I walked to Nakumart and bought some fresh bread which I devoured throughout the day for lunch. That was basically the most exciting thing besides swapping music with Hannah. The end.
Saturday -9/3/13
Saturday was sports day at Bera. I was on first aid and I cannot tell you how fast they all run. We timed a guy and he was probably a second off the world record. I mean some of them had to be carried to our area to be massaged because they ran that hard and have glucose shoved into their mouths. It was insane especially in terms of comparison of our sports carnivals. I mean O thought those athletic kids were really good with all their training and stuff, but in Africa every white guy is just playing for second... unless its swimming. I mean everyone just goes for it, no one is overweight and everyone is phenomenal. I mean if you weren’t going to run at 100km/h from the word go you wouldn’t even consider competing at this carnival. In one word the day was ‘athleticinsanity’.

Sunday -10/3/13
Today was serving at the districts, it went pretty fast so that was good. We came home and the girls discovered a sick bird in our yard, so naturally I was called. It couldn’t even walk and I tried feeding it wet bread but it would keep vomiting it up. I was the only one game to help it because everyone else was apparently scared of it. It was a small white water bird. We basically agreed if it wasn’t better or dead by Monday I would put it out of its misery.


After that ordeal and me scrubbing my hands thoroughly we had my favorite dinner of chicken and chips.Whilst we were eating we heard the street kids calling out “Where is Jack?” and “Come out Jess” and decided that we would come out after tea and play with them. We have been building a relationship with these kids and I think they are beginning to love us to even the point of obsession. Natalie and I had finished washing up and walked out to the gate in which a roar of excitement, squeals and pure joy erupted from the outside of the brown metal. We opened the gate and were mobbed by who knows how many children embracing us in a tightening ring around us. The girls took Natalie up out of our drive way and the boys seeing me trying to shut the gate as I leaned out over the ring of them around my waste helped me pull the gate shut allowing me to easily lock the bolt. I was then also taken up to the circle being formed by the children. I had children fighting over who would hold my hand, one coming in casually going to break the hold of the kid holding my hand only to receive a swift smack for daring too; not much I can do I try and let them sort it out themselves and they usually just hold whatever they can. The game consisted of a song in lugandan in which we would skip around in a circle. It eventually evolved into each girl calling out her name and doing a dance as they others clapped. Callie by this time had come out and joined the circle and her name was being called so she attempted the hip dance the little girls had been doing and pulled it off pretty well. I however saw the warning signs that my name might be called out so I quickly detached myself and walked up the hill to were some older boys were sliding down it on pieces of plastic. All the boys in the game left and followed me and it was then I realized that it was probably a girls game and the boys were just playing to be near me. I don’t know if I have already talked  about it but they use any piece of plastic like ice cream lids and use them to slide down the hill. But when I say the slide down this isn’t butterfly's and fairy's they reach some good speeds and if they fell would probably be badly hurt. I think this speaks volumes of the raw skills and brilliant imaginations these kids have and that they can use an ice cream lid to generate the same feeling of a motorbike going over a jump or some parts of a roller coaster; they are just brilliant and I love them so much and I think they sense that and respond to it. The evening was quickly fading into darkness and we were now approached by Winnie a leader oft the group and demanded/asked to tell them a story. We agreed and she announced to the children in lugandan the next event and again the roar of excitement was in the air and ringing in our ears as they flocked to the top of our drive way finding positions as Winnie commanded them were to go. We were puzzled as to what story to tell and came up with the solution to tell bible stories. Why not make everyday the mission field. We first told the story of David and Goliath. I had narrated and the girls acted them out and we picked kids to play various rolls. There was this one boy who I think is cross eyed and I think had to go to the toilet but didn’t want to miss a thing. He was jumping up and down and just laughing like ‘I really need to go’. Anyway we chose him to be David and we got the stone part and then he was off running up and down the road to find three rocks. For a minute I didn’t know how to tell the story as I think the three of us were wondering if he would actually throw them at Callie or just pretend. I decided that we had to make a sacrifice and Callie might have to suffer in Jesus name. Luckily he didn’t. We finished and were given a thank you clap which is a rhythmic clap. We then continued with our bible stories of Noah’s Ark, Jesus making lots of fish and bread. Winnie then told a story which didn’t quite follow the theme of our stories with a happy ending. Her story consisted of a cow and a monkey and the cow asked for some bananas but the monkey said no and the cow died of starvation. It was charming nun the less and by this time mothers had come to see what the kids were all gathered about and to take their children home. We then deiced ti finish the day with a prayer in which Natalie prayed over them. We hugged them all good night, gave high fives and tried to slip inside without the children who eagerly clung to us. Solomon had some food to bring in and the kids helped us carry it in and they were ecstatic to be inside our yard. They sated on the car park and did a good job carrying in the food. They ran around screaming just simply because they were inside. Anyway our day ended as we waved our last goodbyes and stood inside our yard looking at each other feeling so happy and complete. I can’t wait to play with them again and feel that we can show the Jesus love as some families are Muslim and others non believers. Such simple stories to us were incredible to them. I had to obviously make them simple and keep to a skinny plot  and it seemed to work. It is amazing how much just spending time with kids and a smile will influence them. In the end its just all about Love.
 
Monday -11/3/13
Today started off like most of my Mondays...a long sleep in. Then at 1:30pm we went to the Mexican restaurant we have been planning to go to for some time. I ordered a burger whilst everyone else had the Mexican dishes they all greatly missed. I decided that with all the spices and weird tastes that it was safer to just go with what I knew, it wasn’t the greatest, but wasn’t the worst and I probably won’t be going back. However the main idea was to meet some girls who were volunteering at the bay’s home; it was really nice to get to know them and I think they had felt and gone through a lot of the same things we went through.
After that we walked to the craft market where I ordered an elephant painting. I am so excited to see it completed and actually get it. I had intended to buy another painting that A lady had told me I could have for 150,000shillings which is $50 but when I went and saw her she did remember me but not the price and was now asking for 450’000 shillings. Blowed if I’d be paying that much so I left satisfied with my first purchase. This guy has a really cool style so I can’t wait to see how it turns out. I think the lady had given me the first price because it was a rainy day and she needed to make a sale.  However today was not and she had probably met what she needed to sell so anything now was just a bonus. I then had a look around and saw a lion that looked like a real lion so I bought it for my collection which is basically complete. Then I saw another lion, that was a light wood and it was really cool and the guy had said the magical words ‘I will give you good price’... when they say this it means they are desperate for a sale and you can get pretty low. I think today I only really discovered this side of the game and if I had had that prior knowledge I could have haggled him down lower. So that will be Riley’s lion. I think he wanted a cheetah but I haven’t found one that looks like a real cheetah so I think this is a much better choice.
Also today I have been talking to Natalie (my twin) about fasting and have decided that we will both fast on Tuesday’s. I have never been very into fasting but I think I should. She said one thing that pretty much sold me to the idea... ‘ Fasting isn’t meant to be healthy for the body, it’s meant to be healthy for the soul’. So I can’t wait and then Hannah was talking to me saying that fasting is good to get self-control, focus on God and to get to a place of breakthrough; which is basically for me ticking D) all of the above.
Also this week I have been asked by Solomon to paint a portrait of him and his girlfriend. I have started so this should be interesting. He was also very fnd of the sick bird I think even though we had it for not even 24hr and had even named it something like Qaurii boy. He watched my kill it, which I am not sure was the best idea even thoug he seemed  fine, but insisted we make a cross and we put some flowers on the grave. It was a quick berial because I didn’t want him to see it flapping around when the nerves kicked in so it was straight into the hole and covered up. I thought that people in Africa would all be accustomed to death but apparently not as Kevin had pleaded we wait till this afternoon to end its misery and I had agreed with the terms that if it wasn’t better or dead it would have to be done to be nice. I also finally wrote a letter to my sponsor child and painted him a picture so I will hopefully send it tomorrow.
This week has been very good and I hope that the one to come will be equally as exciting. I feel like I am about to have a break through over the next period and move into a new season. So prayers for that please. This week I have really felt for me that sometimes you can't have plan b because you won't make plan A happen or be totally committed. That in everything id do I should pursue excellence. And that I need to decide to be happy and stay committed to Gods will because my own will is dangerouse and doesn't know what it wants. What is God's will? Look around you, it won't be to far away if not right under your nose. I think that is everything and I wanted to leave you with this quote.
Forget Mistakes.
Forget Failure.
Forget everything except what you’re going to do now and do it.
-Will Durant

Monday 4 March 2013

Week 8



Week 8 26/2/13 - 4/2/13
Tuesday -26/2/13
Today’s blog will be short. We started our first day helping living hope clean up. I also made myself a list of biblical things to do each day. I then went to sleep after watching Sky fall and feeling depressed that this might be Daniel Craig’s last James Bond movie. An interesting day which I didn’t blog thus it’s shortness.
Wednesday -27/2/13
Today was our second day helping Living Hope clean out. Our day started off with waking up, putting on some clothes, eating a penutbutter and jam sandwich and boarding our taxi bus (which has a sun roof) to central as this week Arbbay is having the week off. We had our morning devotion where we learnt about serving and the seven points about excellent serving. Then we sorted bags and counted beads in the living hope shop. At lunch the fun began as I scored Jess’s piece of chicken and then Thomas, Jess and I walked to the markets were with my intentions of buying a Giraffe and hopefully a Buffalo if my seller met my budget. After some serious looking and searching throughout the market I picked up a giraffe in the first shop I walked into and asked how much to promptly deliver my buying price. They were asking 25’000 shillings and I got them down to 16’000 shillings. Then I asked if they had a buffalo and she brought one over saying how perfect it was said it was 50’000 shillings. I pulled out my wallet and in a dramatic way showed her I only had 30’000 and said I wanted two. She had previously told me I was the first customer so I had em were I wanted them...desperate (I am not dramatising it). So after some bargaining I was getting both for 32’000. You might think I was being cheap but that was still a white person price. They milk us for all they can and so they should so you have to play a whole bargaining game and you can never show how much you love something otherwise they aren’t as easy with the price. So I walked out very happy and we had a walk around were I saw some future purchases. So I had scored two animals for the price I thought I might be spending for one and thus I will be able to get through my lit of purchases quicker. We then went back Jess had brought some cool leather sandals. We spent the afternoon helping Central with sorting beads and at three we were dismissed. We than waited in the room for about 45 minutes for no apparent reason as we were supposed to have left, then we boarded our disco van and left for our African Haven with its barbed walls and white walls. I had an early shower and have been working through my biblical things to do list. Today my throat and chest have been really sore and tight and I don’t know why. I am not sure if I should just struggle threw it or be strong. So here I am now writing my blog and admiring my nearly complete array of animals. Next to buy is a lion and an antelope. Then I will start on my family’s things. I hope to also buy a painting form the painting market. I know it sounds that my most exciting thing today was my purchases and to be honest they were, but did I learn the most from them probably not; so every experience has its own emotional and learning experience. I have also been reading my Mums emails and really like them, because I feel connected still to home.  Peace out from Africa.
Thursday -28/2/13
Today was our last day helping living hope. I didn’t write a blog in this day and I don’t think anything to interesting happened.


Friday -1/2/13
Today is a day off so even though I am happy for the break I am also feeling a bit lost with what to do with myself now. I had a nice big sleep till 9:00am. Having nothing to major to do I read my bible, watched a movie and then we had lunch. The morning as you can tell wasn’t very busy in any way. After lunch we had planned to go to Java’s, than some of us would go and look at the Friday markets and then come home. We set off for the long walk which we calculated was about 5.3km. At Java’s I shared a cookie ice-cream thing with Jess; we choose chocolate, vanilla and tutti frutti. I like to stick with flavours which are safe and reliable like chocolate and vanilla. Tutti frutti in my opinion was very unsafe and did turn out to be dangerous. Next time I will choose vanilla, chocolate and choc chip mint; and will be very happy. We then went to the markets where we were probably out of place being the only three white people in a totally African market. I had two guys walk past me and greet me like a friend and then grab my hand but lucky I was on to them because they were actually trying to snatch my arm bands I felt them being tugged so I quickly threw them off. I think the trick is to just ignore them calling you and just look casual and relaxed as to not attract attention. We then went to two art galleries which were really cool, but unfortunately were overpriced in my opinion.  We then stopped buy the DVD shack and brought some DVD’s including Australia. I walked home while Thomas waited for some other DVD’s and met Isaiah and another boy whom we had played with one Sunday. So I walked home with him asking various questions and enjoying both boys holding my hand. Ounce home I lay outside trying to meditate like a good spiritual Christian but ended up thinking about if I was a small person and how I would survive in the garden. Then a night we watched Australia, I sewed and put beads in Natalie’s dread and painted. I then had a shower listened to some Mark Driscoll and went to bed.
Saturday -2/2/13
Today is another lazy day. I feel like I am achieving nothing at the moment and am just going with the flow to much. I want to be challenged and broken, and become totally captivated and dependent upon God. I want to feel passion and vulnerability, I am ready to be challenged and put in deep water. I feel like I have jumped deep into the sea buy coming here but now the tide has gone out and I am now up to my ankles in water. I want cool things to write about and how God is changing me spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically. But here I am reading the bible trying to be captivated or interested, feeling flat and unmotivated and just wondering why I am here. In simple terms bring on the hard times God because even though I might feel like it’s all too hard in the deep at least I will know I am growing. I need to be blown out of the water. I mean each day is just what I did and not much else because nothing is really going on in my head. So if you want to pray for me, pray that I be challenged, broken and lit on fire for God. I need to be inspired by life.
Otherwise today nothing much will happen and it will be like every other day. I have been going through some old folders and seeing all my school assignments and reading them, there is a part of me that misses those times and the feeling of creating a complex spider web of ideas. It’s like I miss the challenge of juggling the stress. And in a way it is sad because my childhood is somewhat behind me now and I am now responsible for myself. It is a scar concept of facing this awkward transition that is generally blunt and doesn’t leave much room for graduation into it. You finish school and bam you’re in the adult world, no ceremony or recognition into adulthood you just get dropped into it. So I think a part of me is still grieving everything like that. I mean its funny how as a kid you would always want to be a big kid, an adult and each year you would go into the next grade oblivious that your school days were running out. And then you find yourself in the last day of school; some are happy, some sad but I think underneath we are all a little confused as to what it all means and what to do next. What will I do with my life? How will I use it to glorify God? How will I cope?
For me the importance of memories is becoming clearer and how much I cherish each one. So to give you a taste of what’s going on in my head that is what is.
Sunday -3/2/13
Church serving- nothing much else happened.
I have had a thought today. As you know serving at church isn’t my favourite of the weekly activities but I feel like that maybe my purpose here is to connect with my East team and even though I will serve as best I can, that isn’t my main focus for being there.
Monday -4/2/13
Today I have come to a few conclusions. Instead of everyday telling you what I did I am going to skip some days because in all honestly no one wants to hear about I did nothing that day. On days that something interesting happens or when I discover something concerning the mystery of life; I will talk about.
Today I talked to my family. It was fantastic and I actually can’t wait to talk to them again. We also discovered that by turning of the video less megabits were used. I painted in the yard for a long time today, just experimenting and mucking around. I then was listening to a sermon about Mary and Martha and became motivated to rearrange my room and organised it. I feel like that as I enter month three there will be some big changes for me spiritually and mentally, so pray for that please.
Another week has come to an end which reminds me just how fast my time here is going and I want to get as much as I can out of it and have so many experiences I am overwhelmed with change in my heart. 
I was watching Australia and one of the quotes was 'In the end the only thing you really own is your story; I'm just trying to live a good one'. I really like this and it really just spoke to me that God has me in a specific place at a specific time to feel specific things. That my story is Gods book and that he will surely make the book exciting and life changing each chapter, taking each moment and embracing each thougt, because you will never go back to a place you have already been. You may think the same thing again but you will never have the experience of discovering that thought for the first time again. Living is about being bold, falling over and getting back up and looking our fears in the eye to see our deepest vulnerabilities. I sometimes feel out of place, or wasting the moment, that I feel restless and unfulfilled, but God has me here and even though I have no idea what he is doing he is working in me, in places of my soul I am not aware that are causing me to have side effects in an unexpected way. I have to cling to the fact that God has me in his hands and that if my heart is willing than I must be in the will of God.